That Wednesday morning

On a Wednesday morning, I woke up with dread. Straight up dread. The idea of getting out of bed was exhausting because that meant that I would need to start my day. 

My day wasn’t the problem. That one meeting was. 

That one meeting I had to attend to and be present with a group of people who didn’t want to speak up - because of him. 

Your generic corporate guy. Loud. White. Talks too much. Makes no point. 

That wednesday morning, I didn’t have it in me. 

I joined the meeting - disengaged. 

I couldn’t speak in the meeting after and then realized. I am exhausted. Just mentally exhausted. 

Leadership, especially in middle management, does that to you. 

It feels lonely because you have to make tough decisions, but you don’t have the autonomy to make a decision - at least a feel informed one - without getting on calls every day. 

That morning, I finally hit the wall. 
If this is happening to you, you truly have one of two choices: 

One - you keep chugging along your day, with your mind numb, nodding along and not moving forward. 

Two - you take a day off. In my book, if you’re mentally not connected, that means you need a sick day off. 

The stress of day to day work, especially ones riddled with insane meetings with no decisions and a lot of noise, chips away from our own energy. Our energy is like a bank account. Sure, you can chip away but you also have to deposit in to make sure there’s a balance. 

What I noticed was the most difficult part WAS to be disconnected from it because corporate life only values your productivity at any given moment… which creates addictive stress. 

You are not your productivity. You are not a robot. Your mind needs a break.

If you are experiencing something similar, I can help with a coaching class package. All you have to do is reach out.